oh baby

The love I have for my unborn child is amazing. Even though I don't know the sex I still love him or her. Whether I give it up or choose to raise it on my own, I will love with all my heart. I have a lot to think about. On what choice is right for me. I would love to keep this bundle of joy that keeps growing inside me but I have to think about how am I going to raise it and where am I going to live. Will I be able to make it on my own with wic, housing, no car, while going to school and maintaining a job all while I'm alone through this journey. (I still have friends who are there for me love you guys; Jessica&&Natalie) I also have the option of giving it up for adoption but not just to anyone. I would rather know the people maybe a family friend. My reason for adoption is not because I want the easy way out, abortion is the easy way out, I know a family will be able to provide for my child better than I could ever do.

I can see a change in my belly its popping out a bit more but its still not to noticeable that I'm pregnant. I still weigh the same and I'm worried I won't be able to gain enough weight. Since I'm under weight I should gain about 28 to 40lbs and I haven't. I guess I just have to keep eating but healthy not all junk food.
...more on this later.....

I'm off to the kitchen to feed my hunger.