tropic

I just finished watching Taken, which turned out to be a better movie than expected. It was filled with action. Now we're watching Tropic Tunder...hah the funniest movie. Today was supppose to be girls night but I sleep most of the afternoon. I went to be at four almost five adn woke up at 8:30 to get eat breakfast at some old school resturant. The type where the locals go and the waitress knows their name. The waitress was some what rude but it was expected in that type of environment.

My tummy seems to be getting bigger. I weight 127, the most I've ever weighed. I still need to see a doctor maybe I can go sometime this week. I don't know how we'll do it, meaning money wise. So the adoption looks like is gonna happen. I still need to talk to the family but they seem very interested. I hope that giving this baby to family who deserves it and has their heart in the right place. I'm not saying I don't have my heart in the right place because I do and I want what's best for this baby. Most might see it has like I'm being selfish or doing it the easy way. All I know is I want what's best for my baby and if that means giving it a better life. I know I will think of the baby for the rest of my life and hope that he/she is happy. I hope my baby doesn't think I didn't want him or love him because I do. I just wanted the best for him and a family who hasn't had the blessing of child to raise deserves one. This family diffently deserves one, and if we both go through the adoption I know they will be happy. I maybe never be able to see my child due to its going to be a closed adoption. Which I completely understand but will be at peace with myself knowing its going to a loving couple.