BOys

I'm at home watching House :] totally love that show.

Okay the night before yesterday I stumbled across a journal from when I was going out/dating an ex of mine. It brought back memories both good and bad. Uh, it made me miss him and what we had. I'll admit it, I still love him. Just not as a lover, but as a friend. I wish we could continue our friendship. We spent two years of our lives everyday together, practically. I considered you my lover but what was I to you. I never knew. Until it was to late, I let you go. I had to, I wasn't happy and I wasn't myself anymore. I'm sorry for the way things ended but in the end I'm happy now.

Last night Jacob called. I enjoyed our conversation.
Everything he said was true.
Like promised; "Jacob has my love"
He said he would do the same on his pretend computer, lol.
Any baby of mine would be beautiful.
Jacob, I consider you to be a good friend of mine, even if we don't talk as often as I think we should. You will always have a piece of heart. I will always love you no matter where our lives take us. You are what I wish for in a man. To bad your already taken. I wish we would've worked out, but oh well.

Ah, so while talking on the phone Fern called me but I didn't answer the phone. He's been telling me wants to hang out cause he misses me. Another ex of mine, well not really cause we never really became boyfriend and girlfriend. When we would hang out I loved every moment. I miss blazing with him, hehe. I remeber once we were watching a basketball game at my house and went outside for a smoke. When I cop was driving by and starting asking questions like who lived here and what not. He was a cool cop, lol, kinda, good thing we didn't lite up the joint.

♥bella