looking back

~I got pregnant in 08 and had my baby in the summer of 09. I was dealing with alot bull shit through out my pregnancy. I was alone when it came to dealing with my emotions of my pregnancy. I wanted him to be there but he wasn't. I wasn't asking him to be my boyfriend or to love me. I just needed him to be there but like he said at one point, "I don't want nothing to do with you or the baby". I realized that the "baby's daddy" is immature and selfish. I learned that he won't change. So I'm getting child support from that bitch. Yes I'm calling the baby's daddy a BITCH!

~I realized that most of all my ex's are the same. They still want me but not like I want to be with you. More like I want to be in you. I guess they miss the sex and sex like acts.

~I learned that death is a part of life. There is nothing we can do about dying. Though its been years since my grandparents died, it still hurts. What helps is what a priest said at my late grandfather's funeral. He is not dead he is living with the lord in heaven. More alive than you or I.

 

~My family absolutely comes *first*. I know things happen unexpectedly but yet in the end were are supportive of one another. My dad's side of the family, I love them and miss them so much. Ever since I got older I have seen less of them. Many cousins are now grown up. I wish I were closer with them. None the less I know they love me. A million thanks to my aunts who threw me a baby shower, which turned out great. My mom's side of the family has gone through so much. I love them so much. So much love to my older cousins who would kick someone's ass for me. They got my back and so do my uncles. What can I say I just love my entire family.